Hey Curvy Girls!
So I am at work thinking , “…should I go all the way to NYC for this audition tonight?” Or “should I bother with that photoshoot tomorrow?”
But at the same time, I’m asking myself, “why am I here at work instead of out doing what I love?” Good Question. Reason is – I am doing a buttload of money trying to break not the business. Let me break it down for you:
I had a horrible experience on a go-see for a model gig the other day. Once I made it to Manhattan, the only place I was allowed to park were princely lots, so I spent the damn $30 to park because traffic had me running a whole hour late. Once I got there, she looked at my photos, resume, and measurements, and without saying a word, handed me pack my packet and told me I was too big for their line. Normally, I think, “eh, no biggie,” but this time, after all the trouble I went through, I broke down and cried out of frustration. Not because she said I was too fat, but because I had spent so much of my hard earned money and hard to come by free time on nothing.
Because of my anxiety, and the fact that I love so close to the city ( in NJ) I choose not to take the train or bus, but the cost isn’t much different. Currently with the number of auditions and bookings I get in NYC here is a breakdown of my modeling and acting related expenses:
- Toll to NYC: $14 x (approx) 3 days per week: $42
- Gas: $20 x (approx) 4 days per week: $80
- Parking: Up to $30
- Total Weekly Expenses to go on auditions and modeling gigs = roughly $150.
Of course, however, this does not include the cost of headshots and Comp Cards, event tickets, etc… So how is one supposed to become a model or actress and not live the starting artist” lifestyle? Not to mention the fact that in the last few months I have barely been home between work and auditions, and now it’s coming to a point where I must choose between my work and my play. I may not believe in a higher power, but if I am meant to be something big, it will happen soon. If not, then I guess it will be time to let go of my favorite hobby. Isn’t it a shame I can’t have my cake and eat it too??
Keep Curvy and Stay Curious