If you’ve been deleted off of my friends list, you probably either a) think you have what it takes to be a model but never will be; or b) run or take part of some sort of scam “magazine” or “troupe” catering to plus size models, tricking these girls into thinking they have something.

For years I let people sweet talk me into thinking I had what it takes, only to be looked at as thirsty, being asked to do anything and everything for FREE! I participated in runway shows put together so badly it was EMBARRASSING to even put on my resume, and met people who have called me any and every word referring to “white b***ch” (but only behind my back). I’ve publicized designers that then pass me over when the paid work comes in… Been spoken down to because of my race, and been buttered up by nearly every grimey “businessman” I’ve come across.

What I learned in 2014: DON’T follow your heart. DON’T live broke but do what YOU’RE GOOD AT and what pays the bills! If you’re not getting paid to wear clothes you’re not a model. If you’re over a size 16 you will most likely never be a model. Just freaking deal with it! It’s disgusting seeing women in their 30’s and 40’s spending every penny they have on modeling classes. HAH!

Discover what you’re good at, don’t let other people tell you what you’re good at to make their pockets fatter.

I apologize to my readers for falling off the grid, but I must say I prefer life out of the public eye, as I am now honing my knowledge of the modeling industry by working behind the scenes, building my skills behind the camera as a photographer and videographer.

Though my interest in modeling has faded, I am still a curvy girl in a big world, and plus size modeling has been the hot topic of 2015, with models like Ashley Graham getting an editorial spread in Sports Illustrated: Swimsuit Edition, and most notably, the infamously emo, tattooed up size 22 blogger/model we all love, Tess Munster, has been signed to MiLK Management (I can’t even count how many times I’ve submitted to them… *sigh*).

The way I see it, the more that these astonishing bigger beauties are nearly breaking the Internet, the more girls are being fed false hopes of becoming a plus-size model. I came across This article on Ravishly.com the other day which made me feel like I’m not the only realist out there among a sea of wanna-be’s. Let me quote one of my favorite paragraphs from the article:

Well, Tess. This is how I #EffYOURbeautystandards:

Every time I go on Facebook I feel like I am being brainwashed to think that the fashion industry is finally accepting plus-size models. Note to world: THIS IS NOT REAL LIFE. The term “Plus-size” is still absolutely taboo when it comes to creditable fashion houses, fellow models, photographers, and designers (with the exception of custom made gowns for celebrities like Gabourey Sidibe, memba that?).

We’ve all read article after article that Sports Illustrated: Swimsuit Edition 2015 will be featuring “plus” model, Ashley Graham and her #CurvesInBikinis movement. Check out the video below… it’s definitely HOT, but…

….How many of you read the fine print?

…. and learned that Ms. Graham was hired to shoot an ad campaign for SwimsuitsForAll.com, who then PURCHASED ad space in SI. This means that Sports Illustrated never actually sought out a plus size bikini model, just that one was presented to them and they are following the trend of “thick women” (I.e, Kim Kardashian clan, Amber Rose, etc.) being the center of pop culture. My question is, why didn’t they feature the Fatkini as well????

I have a special project that in the works that will cover how the public feels about size….. This article is certainly TO BE CONTINUED as there is much more debate of what sizes are are acceptable and what is not.

In the mean time, Listen to Nicki Minaj’s new banger, “Only” and tell me what you think of the lyrics….