We all have dreams, however, not many choose to go and chance them. Why not? Because there is so much risk of failure. Not only is there the risk failing your dream, but you may be scared to fail to support yourself financially, fail to give enough attention to those around you, or fail to complete other goals you’ve set out to accomplish. I, myself, have an enormous fear of failure…..so why the HELL did I decide to enter the entertainment business? I guess because my drive to succeed is stronger than my fear of failure.
When I decided to start modeling at 23, I already had six years of specialized training and experience in my field of work, and a career I was passionate about. When things didn’t work out at my last job, I decided I needed a change. I was burnt out and felt I had invested my entire early twenties in a career I was already at the top of, and I failed in the end. I made a decision to live out the rest of my twenties as if I’m, well, 20-something! Us millennialls are so driven to move up the ladder so fast, we seem to forget about our dreams and aspirations.
Thehe re seems to be a snag in my “YOLO” plan. MONEY! A girl has to make a living while still building her resume doing student films and trade for print shoots to build up the resume and portfolio. With my professional skills, I was lucky enough to find a great part time job in my field of expertise. I (so far) have been able to balance the life in the entertainment business with my “day job” but have had to back out of professional opportunities in order to NOT set myself up for failure.
I know there will come a point in time where I will have to choose between my two passions – work, or “the biz.” Until then, I will keep taking one day at a time and hustle my way to the top!
keep curvy and stay curious